Today is 04/13/2019 ! It’s a absolutely fabulous Saturday night. Here I am at my keyboard typing with much joy, because I have so much to tell you guys!! No serious this challenge is BLOWING my mind. Funny to think you can come across something so simple and it’s amazing! Practicing Kindness to myself has been really really REALLY interesting.
Okay so Friday are usually my bumpy days in the evening when I find myself fighting to be in my boyfriends space. Literally me versus his friends. LOL. As I was going through the day I was listening to my heart being more present with my lovely babies it was amazing I had breakfast and lunch down and found so much energy listening to my heart and pumping myself up with good feelings and thoughts 💭. Then the evening rolled around and he had to make some runs with the buddies. I felt tense like I had a lot to say, mostly a lot about why I didn’t want him to go. Then I remember feel for your heart. I heard it doing it’s pumping but much faster. I said what would Gods spirit do if he was with someone? I thought he’s an amazing dad, and boyfriend who cares for us dearly I should let him go, let him be true to his self enjoy his friends and see how you feel? I told myself yes. I’m going to remember who I am I can find things that feel good to me in my time to myself. My heart beat slowed… my thoughts began: I can feel good now. I’m amazing..I love time alone..I’m the best person to hang with.. oh you know my favorite show comes on tonight I love to get into that alone right? Oh don’t forget your favorite dinner your husband got you. Did you forget your kids are asleep on time? You have time to love yourself!
I mean seriously the good thoughts/feelings came rolling in! I hugged and kissed him good bye. Feeling strangely excited like a kid again, I put on a pretty robe grabbed my snacks flipped to datelines new episode and relaxed cracked open my wine and found my peace. After the show went off I thought wow these last few weeks I’ve been so mad at him for leaving I’ve been missing all my new episodes of my favorite show! I said I enjoy this I’ll do it again❤️ After sitting there a bit I sprung up grabbed my phone and started taking beautiful pictures of myself like some sort of magazine model and was very delighted doing so! I immediately sunt them I felt very confident which was different then usual. 5 minutes after I sunt the messages my husband was back on time. Faster then any weekend! I was satisfied. My heart was satisfied. All was well. ❤️